Tuesday Is Therapy Day

 


I thought it proper to give you an appropriate title.

Limiting you to 'mind-numbing-bitch', wasn't quite cutting it for me.

I saw my therapist today and we had a good session.

I mean, our sessions are usually productive but today just hit a bit different. Anytime I get to outlay my half of the story its always quite mind opening for me. It feels like the legitimate aura of belief. The belief that shows that I'm not crazy, that anyone in my same exact position would have behaved poorly. When speaking to a male counsellor and explaining how I behaved really poorly to the fact that another man shared a bed with the woman I loved, I'm given understanding and relation to the idea that most men would feel emasculated in my position.
He also made me think about HIM, and how he would have felt through all this. The emasculation that he would have undergone. The fact that he is a reasonably innocent party in all this and that you and I inflicted this reality upon him. Thats not to say that we're not allowed to follow our hearts, but it just serves to point out that we created this reality for HIM. He may be boring, but is he deserving of this? The answer is No, but that's not the end of the discussion...

...Are you meant to stay in your position even though you're unhappy and unfulfilled?

Are you meant to protect him from the truth: The idea that he is not enough for you?

Should he be forever protected from harsh realities based on the fact that he's not strong enough to endure the truth at hand?

You'll find that the answer is No.

Regardless of that though, no one deserves to be mistreated.

You should have left when you knew that he wasn't the one for you for eternity.

You desire so much more, and whatever I have to provide only serves as an enticement to what you truly crave...

Release the hostage. You know that it's not right so why prolong it? ...



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